I'm Done!

It's good day to be grateful, not that we should not be grateful everyday. Here goes my rant on on my mundane life. If your life is more mundane than mine and decides to read this, feel free.Although since you've already started, might as well.

I have been putting off writing an entry for an eternity, or so it seemed. So, taking this opportunity, I would like to finally renounce my position as a Ph.D student. And...yay! I have a Masters now! It did took four years but though it is long in comparison with the usual two years, the time spent was not in vain. I learned so much about myself. First of all, I'm lazy, and am lost. Also, I realized that I wanted a Ph.D so that I could be called Dr....well not totally but part of it.

Ever since I was a child, I had to conform with society's expectations for excellence in studies and sure enough I did. I almost did it without effort, until now. For some unknown reason, all my motivations (if I had any) were extinguished as soon as I reached the Ivory tower everyone referred to as the Bachelors. Little do they know, a BSc. is just the ground floor. The climb however, is different depending on each individual and I probably attempted to take the hardest route. What I meant was, I made it hard for myself by losing discipline.

These 4 years were full of depression and self-indulgence. Which one led to another, I'm not sure but I am spoiled. Through my depression, I was not able to achieve what I desire, and I rue for it every night before I go to bed. Through self-indulgence, I experience all sorts of luxury while using them as a distraction. What do I enjoy? I am not sure anymore. Gone are the days where I can sit on a spot and be involved in something while time slips past my fingers. I went a little bit off tangent there, oops. I was able to gain spiritual knowledge and what is important to me. Yes, friends and family, also books. In my depressing mood, they stood by me and support each of my decision. Never in my life have I experienced so much warmth, I could cry. I've learned to be grateful to each and everyone of you, and gratitude is all I can give.

So anyways, thank you for reading! I was only able to reach half-way through the Ivory tower but I did at least hope to come out a better person. I love you all! Always remember, conformation to society is toxic to the society itself! Do what you want and to quote Dr. Seuss "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." Keep to good ones around you and don't go around chasing people that are pathologic to your life. :)